Hello Dear UR family! My first official post

[Shadrak-Daniel]

Hi guys. Since this is my first post i will like to start with a short background story of how i came to know Jesus and how the inner conflict started soon there after because of ECT doctrine.

two and a half year ago i came with my mum to the UK to work so that we can provide for our family back in Romania. We only planned to stay for a few months to get enough money to solve some of our problems. But as things got harder we needed to stay longer.
I was heavily into the new age path and was deluded into a life of expecting the galactic federation to come and fix earth.
Did not know much about Christianity since for my first 9 years of life i was growing under Jehovah's Witnesses doctrine so i thought of Jesus what some people from the new age think, that He is an ascended master among many...
Fast forward a year from coming to the UK, I finally got introduced to a charismatic Christian Fellowship in the town i live in. At the time i was a bit of a polytheist/pantheist/buddist... Since i used to believe there are infinite gods i was worshiping the god i thought was the true god of light, love and freedom. I called him Primus. Because of this i ended up believing that Jesus was Primus's Son.

But since my spirituality was mixed into a heavily complicated and overly creative imaginary world of my own (where i ended up believing it to be real) I cannot explain exactly how i explained myself the story of Jesus.

So long story short i came to the conclusion that those worshiping Jesus were unknowingly worshiping Primus and my mission was to enlighten them.. (Or so i thought) Because of this, 1 year and 5 months ago i decided to get baptized in that church.

So i got baptized but i was still a new-ager worshiping Primus.
Fast-forward 4 months, i stopped going to that church because i ended up in a bleak period of my life. I could not find any job for 6 months and my mum was carrying everything on her shoulders.
I was overly stressed yet still in my imaginary reality.

Heare i became angry with who i thought was god and that he had left me to suffer. (i had NO wisdom at all back then  :sigh: ) I was incredibly self centered and wasn't seeing outside myself into the world. I thought i was entitled to the whole of creation... So what did i do? i thought it was up to me to fix my life.

And one of the ways was to do magic. So i found a forum of magic... (surprise it was black satanic magic  :sigh: ) Since my consciousness was burned by the new age/pantheistic/polytheistic faith, i lost sight that darkness and black magic = bad and i fell into the trap that demons are misrepresented high vibration good doers.

So i ended up doing black magic for money, power and a crazy thought = gain powers of astral transportation to escape this world altogether and enter into a world of my own making.

This sort of road led me to some serious consequences. I got cursed by those satanists and was haunted by demons. My mind got destroyed.

There God came to my help. In my desperation i cried for God to help me and He did.
Over the course of three months i slowly got to know who Jesus really was and got the hint that Yahweh (the real one) had nothing to do with the Jehovah's witnesses version which i disliked terribly.

I had some strong revelations and supernatural experiences of the Trinity's true love and some of the bible was just speaking through my mouth even before i actually started reading it.

in a total of 10 months since my crisis and healing and born again experience i was frequenting my local church, every Sunday,  and every other days of activity during the church.

Even if i frequented the church i was still left mostly to do my own research into how to walk this christian walk. So i was devouring videos from youtube with sermons, testimonies and christian/biblical movies.

During this surfing through the interned i wound up through some terrifying testimonies of hell which sent my mind spinning. I, all of the sudden, found myself back into my crisis of the demonic attacks from the curses. I thought i was damned to that place forever and this unbalanced my mind again.

But this process would happen slowly over the course of a few months.

This triggered a spiral into a powerful depression and anxiety.  And even though this church was the kind of once saved always saved type, and they were trying to encourage me, i never really experienced the peace i had before seeing these videos.

I was constantly crying to God to not forsake me and to help me accept eternal hell if it is His will. This acceptance never came fully, and in May this year i decided to see what universalist Christianity has to say about this matter. So i started to research and when i ended up on some really good UR blogs i finally felt like i could trust God again. But my anxiety did not got cured. I still could not explain how these people could experience such traumatic visions. And even to this day that fear is still hidden in me.

Over the course of this summer i oscillated from UR to ET like a grass hopper. Eventually, my anxiety and fear episodes got so bad that every morning i would wake up in intense fear and lived through the day like a zombie barely surviving. Lost my job and my connection with God was missing (Or so i was feeling because of my intense fear)

Now about a month has passed since my anxiety diminished to almost nothing because of the UR faith.

During this summer i was heavily researching UR information all over the internet, much like i did with ET christianity. And i wound up over Garry Amirault and his view on the lake of fire and hell. And i lived how he explained that these visions of hell can be the produce of the human mind much like the hallucinations of those suffering from schizophrenia. This was in one of his youtube videos about the myth of hell.

Ever since then i kept growing spiritually and understanding the word of God perfectly.

And more and more i found more UR resources among which was this website and another forum that i can't fully remember the name right now.

So yeah. This is my story. And i have still a few questions about these supernatural experiences and why do people have them and why are they so detailed about hell but i'm confident i can eventually reach a full closure here with ur help.

[sheila]

Welcome Shadrak, As you come forth from the miasma of chaos,confusion of Babylon..may you find the peace of God,be comforted

in His presence,and be firmly grounded in God's great LOVE,Mercy and Truth.

[Shadrak-Daniel]

Thank you Sheila!

I have a question... Can anyone help me navigate the Tentmaker forum and web page? I have seen hints over the forum that some of tentmaker staff have a page dedicated to explaining NDEs and hell visions and i want to get there but i can't seem to be able to...

[Andrew]

Welcome Shadrak

I've had a similar journey to you getting lost in the new age and then being pulled out by Jesus and then later experiencing the fear because of the detailed hell experiences on youtube. I find that reading the chillboard testimony pages on this website helps alleviate this fear on days when I'm feeling confused.


Take care


Andrew   

[Shadrak-Daniel]

Thank you Andrew for the welcome! God belss you brother...

Ummm... since i'm a noob... can you direct me to the testimony page? I'm struggling to navigate throught he forum to where i need to find explanations and comfort whether be it on the forum or on the actual tentmaker page... i know this whole tentmaker has LOADS of information about any question i might have but i can't seem to be able to find what i'm looking for easily... Sorry for being a pain... :dunno2:

[Andrew]

https://tentmaker.org/forum/index.php?pretty;board=testimonies-(testify-here!);topic=the-salvation-of-all-how-did-god-reveal-it-to-you.0


this is the topic that helps me the most

[jabcat]

Hello S-D, welcome.  Some of the boards are not viewable unless one has a certain # of posts.  I went ahead and bumped your post count up so you might see some of the other topics, including testimonies in, for instance, the Lounge area.

https://tentmaker.org/forum/lounge/


NDE thread

https://tentmaker.org/forum/judgement-and-punishment/another-view-on-hell-and-nde's-visons-and-dreams/msg204253/#msg204253

[Dandelion]

All of our journeys are different....many with difficult and trecherouos twists and turns.

God is calling each of us, on our journeys. On this website, we believe that all of us eventually answer the call.

Thankful for a God who never gives up on us.

1 Corinthians 13:8
Love never fails.

Welcome S - D! There are no coincides in the Kingdom of God. You are here for a reason.

D.

[marie glen]

Oh my goodness! :welcome: :hiya:

Your story is THE story! About the wayward way - which right now is a very very wide road. But it's all basically the same thing. Until we are reconciled to God (Yahweh Most High / Father) through Jesus, we live in a world of our own making, with encouragements from the adversary. But Jesus becomes "the seed" in us, and it grows as it is nourished by the Holy Spirit/Presence of God-both Father and Son? In the coming Paradise (kingdom of God) Father and Son will be in everyone.. We are the trinity?! Sorry a new thought there.. lol. Each personality/individual is 3? the individual + the Father and + The Son.. that's why trinity makes so much sense to so many?)

I think of visions of hell, near death experiences, and most, not all, visions as that same thing. Being of one's own making and imagination.. with, likely encouragement from the adversary or minion of (following the prime directive of walking about as a roaring lion seeking whom to devour).

And we all have to be brought out of the world of our own making, by being born again ("the seed" in us; Galatians) and by the "washing of the Word". Like we are being filtered, or strained..

Jesus said this - "All in the tombs (graves) will hear His voice and will come forth (out of the tombs/graves) ..some in the resurrection of life" (at Jesus' return - Rev.20) "and some in the resurrection to the judgment" (John 5:28)

And 2 Peter 2:9 says "God knows how to preserve the unjust for correction/kolasis on day of judgment." Lake of fire is mentioned here, after judgment 'day'. But, is there even one that He cannot correct?!

I believe at the return of Jesus, man's world is destroyed via a lake of fire (2 Peter 3:10) even people are - but not forever! Jesus being the first one resurrected. As 1 Corinthians 15:23-28 says , "Jesus the firstfruit, then, those that are His at His coming, then, comes the end after all things have been put under Jesus, He will give the kingdom to the Father". And what is that verse talking about? Verse 20-22 says "but Jesus has risen and so will all others, like all people die in Adam, so shall all live in Jesus.. Jesus being the firstfruit/first to rise, to come forth out of the tombs into the empire of God.

So I figure during the (long?) course of "the judgment" those that rose in the resurrection of judgment can be born again/corrected.. then after the correction of "all" is a "catching away"/resurrection into Life, like occurs at Jesus' return to Earth amidst (fiery) Armageddon (the tares were gathered to).. But this time "the elements will melt with a fervent heat.. wherein shall come about the new heavens ("kosmos") and new Earth wherein righteousness shall dwell" .."so that God may be all in all".

During the course of the judgment, is when I believe Jesus will complete the work of drawing "all to Himself", and is when Psalm 22:27 will be fulfilled - "ALL the ends of Earth will remember (Hebrew- come to their senses) and will turn to the LORD, and ALL families of the nations will worship/rejoice before Him".

Thank you Shadrak-Daniel for sharing your story with us! God bless! "Cause His face to shine upon you!" (Numbers 6?)
:Peace2:

[Shadrak-Daniel]

Thank you everybody for  your warm welcome and the immediate help oi received to be able to understand these controversial subjects. I pray Jesus blessings upon you all brothers and sisters.  :HeartThrob: