For the past three years, I have endured many tribulations after my senior summer. I started in the 2007 fall at this really strict tech school with a very rigid cirriculum. Thats pretty rough when you dont even know what career you want. While at that school, I started turning to Organized religion for the answers, and also developed GAD. Then I started having problems with organized religion when they couldnt help me, and only made matters worse. I ended up turning into a Fundamentalist Catholic, due to my opposition to Fundamentalist Protestanism. But of course the same problems exist eitherway. Then my anxiety got worse last year when I was in a new four year college, when I was learning more Dogma, which filled in loopholes allowing for spirituality in place of all that legalism. I finally got psychological help and went on treatments. I got well enough to realize that if Legalism was causing one to endure anxiety, it couldnt be a good thing.
The Blessings then start to begin. I am finally released from legalism. A month later I find out about Universal Salvation. I still struggled with anxiety after bad things, stressful situations, or abrupt changes. Just recently my social network has been rebuilded. And I have this feeling that the Lord has promised something great for me for the fall.
However, I have been having some doubts instilled in my mind about next term at school. I have been guided to some dissapointments that broke down the pillars of my school life. However I have been guided to some blessings outside of the school system making me wonder if maybe the Lord has brought me to these disappointments to guide me to a different path outside the academic world to possibly a job or something in the ministry?
This is not the first time I recall having been answered in a way I did not expect. Like instead of being led to see strict adherence to religion in a spiritual way, but taken out of that system.
But I do have GAD, and sometimes I have disturbing thoughts, and have a difficult time dealing with unpleasant situations, changes, and still have the intrusions of those old bad memories from last year while suffering severe GAD
I forgot to mention, that I already have a degree from that Tech School in Architecture. So I dont need a degree.
Just my :2c: but since the Lord dragged me out of the world, sometimes it is very difficult to look at.
I would not call it GAD but instead a Spiritual distaste for the old ways that most of the population still operates in today.
You are called out and hedged in.
It is not you that has the problem — IT'S THEM!