Verse of the Day

[Song]

"Something terrible will happen to you" approx my mother says. "How soon?" approx I say. "I'm not telling you. GET OUT" approx my mother replies with a shout as she closes the door on me.

Yesterday, Aug 20 2023, my mother had held my drivers license in her hand, in my pants were my handwritten UR bible verses that it looks like she wanted to take from me like the others, a standoff.

She tells me I have multiple personalities, that a teacher at my highschool said this. Maybe I vaguely remember this, its fuzzy. I know I'm able to manipulate my character fron suddenly excited to suddenly calm. She reveals to me that I have autism, saying I would repeat things when I was younger. I'm shocked, this is the first I've heard of this.

I type this outside the house, about to walk to my father in the garage for my driving practice.

She the mentions something like how I have OCD, but I think she mixes up the lettering. "Obsessive Compulsive Disorder" I reply to her.  She says I will be blacklisted from work because I work with a high ranking person. In the past I think my mother also said I was diagnosed at birth with asthma. And looking through her old browsing history, makes me think I may have Tourette Syndrome too, as I have a facial tic where I feel an urge to open my mouth wide.

Curious, how much suffering is there that remains undiagnosed?

Romans 8:18 AFV For I reckon that the sufferings of the present time are not worthy to be compared with the glory that shall be revealed in us.

No matter how much suffering there is, I rest assured knowing all suffering is temporary. Christian Universalism is my hope, that all shall believe in Christ and all shall be permanently saved. Without it, who knows, perhaps I would have carried out to completion my persistent suicidal ideation? As I have self harmed to the point of bleeding.

[AshaMithra]

Hi. Song. I hope you?re still around here, and I hope you?re alright. I?ll pray for you. 🙏❤️❤️‍🩹😢 🕯️

Edit: I reread your post. It sounds like your mother is being?not nice towards you. I can only imagine how you feel.

If you?re feeling suicidal, there?s help. Please note though they may or may not call the police/law enforcement.

988 Suicide and Crisis Lifeline.

Please get help either way. If possible, find someone you can trust and talk to.

Don?t rely entirely on my advice as I?m not a medical professional.

I?m sorry you feel this way. 😭😢❤️‍🩹 God loves you.