Hey friend, finally got you here :)
I believed in hell all my life. Would argue for it. I remember trying to point out to a guy one time who had said he thought everyone would be saved, with all my "scriptural knowledge", how eternal torment was real.
I'm with you, and have said so recently - the older I get, the more I realize how little I know.
When God revealed universal reconciliation to me about 6 years ago, I grasped it with open arms. For some, it takes a little longer. At least you're open and searching. I believe if you go to God with an honest, sincere, open heart and ask Him to show you, He will. And if He doesn't, then for some reason it just may not be time yet. God knows and sees all, and I agree, Jesus Christ and Him crucified (and risen!) is the main thing. All else in God's timing.
Blessings, and welcome. James.