Hello B_T. :icon_biggrin:
Good to know you are searching. Being famous and all, you will also know that this is a forum and because of that you will get all types and sorts of people talking about what they believe.
Just as it is in non-universalism Christianity. If I asked a question about Hell in a forum that had, "Roman Catholics, Greek Orthodox Catholics, Protestants, Calvinists, Armanians, Seventh Day Adventists, Mormons, Jehovah Witnesses" all clumped together, I would get a mishmash of answers that all seem to have support.
In the end, you have to take everything from everyone with a grain of salt and be a good workman of God and show yourself approved. So when seeking the truth, there will be crisis's which will tear you, the pain is not a reason for deterant. Sometimes the pain is because the root of bitterness and deciet is being pulled out of your life, and you were holding on to it too long you forgot it wasn't you.