thanks for the welcome
maybe i tell a little about me, i was raised up in a christian family, i never was really christian but i believed there is a God, i´ve never read in the bible in these time, the only story i remembered was the rich man who went to "hell" (scheol/hades), my parents are wealthy also and that troubled me, i felt sorry for this man (i know the meaning now of the parable). my parents told me a lot of stories about demons and satanism, i thing this belief is in the US much stronger than in germany. later i lost my belief, but all what I was told about Jesus, i never really thougt that the bible teaches hell, i didnt know at that time how common this belief is in christianity. later i met a girl over the internet, i really got to love her, she had a very bad youth, she took place at a black mess at the age of 14 and had terrible nightmares - she was a gothic, then i became afraid she would go to hell, i couldnt bear that, than i "studied" about religions, zarathustrism, then i almost become muslim, it might sound strange, but i didnt believe in muslim hell when reading koran, only christian hell troubled me, then in a forum about religion I met a Jehova Witness, at that time i already knew what gehenna was, but i wasn´t shure if annihalitionism is really true, the Jehova Witnesses helped me to loose the fear of hell, i didnt fear to go to hell by myself but the girl i loved, but i didnt really believe the JW, than i found this page:http://www.weltmanager.de/worldmanager/index.htm
when first reading, i was glad they share the opinion of the JW, but what they really teach i realisized only late, i´ve never heard of universalism before but revelation 21-22 and corinthians 15, when i saw, i looked in every bible and was sure corinthians goes beyond the revelation, i asked my parents to buy me a concordant literal NT, i read it and looked in other bibles, i looked in the latin vulgate - which is a better translation than common bibles in my eyes, i learned myself to at least read a little bit of greek and read in the textus receptus, the septuagint many of places of aion. but the picture of Jesus that was told to me, is to "bad" to really believe it is true at the moment, not the picture of God but the picture of Jesus, i well know that the hebrew bible teaches no hell and that the dead rest in peace, so Jesus scared me long time and i´m still a little in favour for judaism/bnei noach.
then i registrated in a forum of Ex - Jehova Witnesses, this are really friendly people, if they didnt lost their faith in general, they dont believe in hell but annihilitionism (some tend to universalism) and have no confidence in the churches but are really christians, i know many believe the JW not to be christians, but what me troubles is the fact that many christians are so full of hate and anger and so merciless that they care nothing about the fate of the unbelievers, how can that be?, but often its just because a lack of knowledge why they believe in hell.
my mother reads a bible for allmost 40 years who teaches universalims in the footnotes (german Bruns Bible) but she never recognized it, i can´t unterstand that.
i quess many of you made similar experiences. but why can christians be so full of hate and unmerciless?