willieH: Hi Mickiel! back brother!
...Nice humility within these words brother... may we all approach God in the same terms as you note above...
Welcome back! pEAce
The Humility is there, because I know the power is not spread out like I want it to be. I want to be a Spiritual giant, I want to be kind and gentle. I want to be patient and longsuffering. I want to be Loving and hold a lot of personal Joy. I want to understand Gods truth, every bit of it. I don't have these things, and I know I need them, and I know where they come from. So this induces humility within me.
I can't stand in a reward line expecting anything from God based on my performance. I can't post on what its like having a life full of Gods Spirit or being able to understand all things, because thats not who I am, its just really not my experience. I can speak on what its like to need Gods Spirit, to need his presence, to need to understand more truth about him, and to need him to support that understanding within me and strengthen it beyond my doubts. I can speak on that, and only hope it does not offend any that I have not obtained some great Spiritual status in this life, here and now.
My dealings with God have not gotten anywhere near where I would like them to be. There is still too much mystery, still too many unexplained blind spots. Still too much weakness within myself.
I read Gods word sometimes and ask God will he ever apply these things to me. Will you give to me, these fruits of the Spirit, so that I can see them, within and without, so that I can know and experience these things for myself. And I can understand somewhat even more now, what it really is to currently thirst for righteousness in your life.
To crave that God be real, in you.