« Last post by Seth on October 01, 2014, 09:25:26 PM »
i fell so badly but not because i hated him...i did not want to be an enemy of god...but i fell into very bad sins and i do not know how to undo them...two especially...i have asked him to forgive me but he has not....i cannot fix them or know how to....i did not want to be his enemy or to trample him underfoot...i love him and did not live like i did though or i would not have sinned...i cannot stop crying... i wan tot come back to him and have been tring all year but he seems to make it clear i crossed the line...it took me 20 years to finally once and for all confess a certain sin and i still do not know how to undo the damage it caused...i am sure ti was him who told me he held all of those things against em and i was nto forgiven fo them...he was very angry with me...i feel so hopeless
Brother, you remind me of someone:
10Two men went up into the temple to pray; the one a Pharisee, and the other a publican. 11The Pharisee stood and prayed thus with himself, God, I thank thee, that I am not as other men are, extortioners, unjust, adulterers, or even as this publican. 12I fast twice in the week, I give tithes of all that I possess. 13And the publican, standing afar off, would not lift up so much as his eyes unto heaven, but smote upon his breast, saying, God be merciful to me a sinner. 14I tell you, this man went down to his house justified rather than the other: for every one that exalteth himself shall be abased; and he that humbleth himself shall be exalted.
I am humbled by your honesty and your heart felt cry for the Lord. Stay close to the Lord. The important thing is to trust him. Let every step be taken in faith that God honors those who cry out to him.