Letters Reveal Mother Teresa's Secret
(Aug. 24) In life, she was an icon for believers of God's work on Earth. Her ministry to the poor of Calcutta was a world-renowned symbol of religious compassion. She was awarded the Nobel Peace Prize.
Mother Teresa had a calling, she told CBS News in a rare interview, based on unquestioned faith.
"They are all children of God, loved and created by the same heart of God."
But now, it emerges that Mother Teresa was so doubtful of her own faith that she feared she was being a hypocrite, reports CBS News correspondent Mark Phillips. In a new book that compiles letters she wrote to friends, superiors and confessors, her doubts are obvious.
Shortly after beginning work in Calcutta's slums, the spirit leaves her.
"Where is my faith?" she writes. "Even deep down there is nothing but emptiness and darkness. ... If there be God " please forgive me."
Eight years later, she's still looking for the belief she's lost.
"Such deep longing for God," she writes. " repulsed, empty, no faith, no love, no zeal."
As her fame increased, her faith refused to return. Her smile, she says, is a mask.
"What do I labor for?" she asks. "If there be no God, there can be no soul. If there be no soul then, Jesus, You also are not true."
Maybe...., as I've suspected.... that "Eonian life" as the Scriptures call it - that new life from God, that we saints experience in the here and now.... is not all that many crack it up to be.
We've all had our highs and lows in the Spirit, even as Mother Teresa did.
I guess what I am trying to say is.....I would not want to live forever, endlessly, eternally - with this highs and lows in the Spirit, that I've experienced the last 60 years - known as "Eonian life."
"Eonian life" as I perceive it now, is only for this age....
The Scriptures spoke of Jesus Christ having the fulness of the Spirit....while we the Saints, only have a taste of the Spirit.
Therefore, who would want to live forever, with just having a taste of God's Spirit?
I do believe that "life" begets more "life", and it will grow greater and greater as we experience the presence of God in the eons to come.
Thus, I wait, eagerly anticipating a more glorious "life"....even "life's to come."
Just some random thoughts, today AJ.