I am not and could not in any way make my physical being and its world. God is producing my body and the world it is in. I'm inside of it here, seeking a more intimate awareness of the God manifesting my reality and His purpose for it. Purpose is a time issue.
As I get older the world gets scarier. My body hurts more, limiting me. This connects to why in the 2nd World War God allowed the slaughter of 6 million Jews and 7 million Christians, specifically because they held to God's word. Did this have something to do with what they believed or failed to believe? God could and did save some from death then. What would we do about this holocaust* if we could. This is all the more demanding a question as many wonder if the same thing is being set up in the United States, for us in our own day, here and now.
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*Stalin murdered more than Hitler and Mao was responsible for the deaths of 5 times the number both Stalin and Hitler taken together killed. How is this the best of all possible worlds to bring about God's purpose for humanities existence? Sorry about this old question, but you brought it up.