I'll keep this as brief as possible and if I can get a few responses I'll be glad to answer any questions in return.
Brief history: I was born into and raised as a Jehovahs Witness so needless to say I'm naturally a little confused. Never having been ok with the conventional beliefs of hell, I haven't been able to grasp modern day Christianity. Then I found the tentmaker site. I found renewed hope that there might be a "loving God."
So I read several of the articles on Tentmaker and listen to the audio messages. Still feeling ok with the whole thing. Then, I watch the video on faith only to find myself feeling hopeless and discouraged again. So I'm going to be honest here and hope I get some feedback. My intention is to voice my feelings on this and not to insult or hurt anyone. Simply put, when I see people singing/praying with their hands in the air, it creeps me out. All the trance-like poses and flailing about just doesn't sit right for some reason. To me, it's no different than watching Jews bounce back and forth while reading prayers at the wailing wall or Muslims kneeling in unison on the floor of a mosque. To me, it just seems like an outward expression meant to compinsate for the lack of inward feeling.
Feel free to correct me. I'm posting this because I really want some peace about this conflict within me.
Everything is "beautiful" in its own time.
There is a "time" to dance, a "time" to refrain from dancing.
Some of the most "spiritual" people that I have ever known in
my life are "quiet" ........they do NOT jump! ha And neither do I
"anymore!!!" Have to be young for that stuff, tho I have jumped
as much as any. . the Lord leads me now to quiet meditation.
Is there any reason He would not? "Be still, and know that "I" am
God!" I have seen God move more in the quiet than in the jumping.
God looks at the heart about such things. Do not judge YOUR
worship by other people's .........do what feels comfortable to YOU.
Why should "any of us" tell YOU what to do when the HOLY Spirit
is in you to do as He wills?
One thing this Christian walk is, it is not dull. At least not for a while, ha
Solomon said "it is a sore travail that God has given to the sons of
men to be exercised therewith." I just love that statement. Every time
I say it, I think of stuff like what you wrote.
Sing and make melody in your heart. Be like the little boy who prayed
for his lunch, and he did it silently, then someone asked him "What
did you say? I didn't hear a word." And he replied, "I wasn't talking to
Let not your heart be troubled. There's a lot more to figure out that