WHAT USE TO BE:
My God use to be a 'A HORRIBLE MONSTER' of cruel and unusual punishment, when he planned
from the foundation of the world to torture most of mankind.
My God use to be a 'GREAT LOSER' because He made a creation but was unable
to reconcile all that were lost, unto Himself.
My God use to be 'A FOOL' because He planned to save all mankind - but He either wouldn't or couldn't..
He could not provide an all inclusive salvation for some men who were stubborn.
He was a fool who planned and couldn't finish! Like the one Jesus talked about. (Lu 14:32)
My God use to be 'A SHAM' when he would command his followers to
"love and forgive their enemies" and "to forgive 70 X 7" to "forgive without limit," then
He the Commander in Chief, does not do likewise. Rather he'd say, "To Hell with lot of Them."
That would make *us* better than our God, wouldn't it?
In reality, Satan was more powerful then my 'god' because he was victorious through
his deception in damning billions of souls to a supposed eternal hell.
My God's will use to be 'BOTCHED' because the will of a man that he created, now has
become stronger and more powerful than His will was to save them.
My Jesus use to be 'A SINNER' - because to sin is to - "miss the mark", and he would miss the mark, by not being able to save the whole world.
"that the world through Him might be saved." (John 3:17)
My Jesus use to be 'A TRAITOR' - because he would not fulfill his mission, instead, he switched to become the epitmony of a Weapon of Mass Destruction.
"The Son of Man did not come to destroy men's lives but to save them." (Luke 9:56)
My Jesus use to be 'A FAILURE' - because he would fail to draw all peoples unto himself like he claimed he would.
I use to think that He has been desperately trying to save - (the remainder of the world's inhabitants since AD 33) - and but is miserably failing in each generation.
"And I, if I am lifted up from the earth, will draw all peoples to Myself." (John 12:32)
My Jesus use to be 'A LOSER' - because he would fail to reconcile all things back unto His Father.
"To reconcile all things back to His Father." (Col. 1:16-20)
I use to have a 'TOO LATE JESUS' - because he showed up 2000 years ago (after myriads were ALREADY lost forever) and has been desperately trying since, then to gather up a load of souls to take to heaven. However, I now find this idea simply absurd.
My Jesus use to be 'A FIBBER' - because he said he was going to make everything new......but then leaves the masses mankind, withering forever in torment and torture in the lake of fire.
"Behold, I make all things new." (Rev 21:5)
My words unto the lost, use to be 'A TWISTED LIE' - because I would tell people, that God loved them with an everlasting love, yet I was also taught to believe, that His love would turn to wrath, if they died without first becoming saved.
My words use to 'SLANDER GOD' - because I did not understand the true image of God or what is His plan and purpose was for His creation.
I use to think that the 'UNBELIEF OF MAN' was more Powerful than God and it could render the work of Christ on the cross without effect.
My mind use to be 'FULL OF CONFUSION' - because I couldn't rationalize the carelessness or the incompetents of the God who would literally abandon billions of His own creation.
My life use to be full of 'FALSENESS' - because I believed that those who died as lost souls, would have no further hope beyond the grave, yet I rarely spoke of Jesus unto the lost.... Instead, I would go fishing.
My life use to be 'FULL OF FEAR' - because I would lie awake at night, wondering if I was going to make heaven my home. Afraid to go to sleep at night, being fearful from the images that was portraited to my little mind, from the HELLFIRE preachers that I would have to listen to.
In so many ways .... I have discovered that my Heavenly Father is exactly the opposite of what I had been taught.
And it is of this discovery I want to tell to you.