Faith is a unique characteristic that is a trait which actually only comes from God. It's not a natural function such as seeing, smelling, tasting . . . each of us began with a "measure" of faith that God gives. The only way to give God pleasure is to exercise the faith that he's given us. It's even among the gifts of the spirit. Part of me "wants" to see Jesus on the cross becoming emotionally numb and lost to the point he cries out to God "why have you left me?"
And until yesterday, I've always believed and accepted that's what has happened. But, over the past 8+ years of my life, since being freed from religious mindsets, I've learned that what I've learned up to now can only benefit me most, if I hang on to what I've learned loosely, and allow new understandings to sprout up and let the old ones either blend in with the new and become one, or simply appreciate them for bringing me to where I am, but also letting them go to make way for other things I can't enter into if I still hang on to them.
So I ask myself, pertaining to this specific issue at hand, which brings me the most encouragement? Which one gives me the greatest rush? The side that sees Jesus in a totally human state where he's borderline delirious and barely coherent, perhaps even babbling meaningless words and phrases? Or, the side that sees him, even in the midst of the greatest torture imaginable, he's alert, still purposefully making declarations which fulfill prophecies concerning his purpose and plan.
And right up to the end, making a declaration to all within hearing his words, then and now, that even though he's been beaten beyond recognition, tortured beyond comprehension and crucified in front of the entire world, at the end of all of that, one of the last things he utters is that "this" was why he was preserved.
At this point, in the God-given faith within me, I choose to see the latter. No condemnation for those who still choose to see him as a mortal. I totally believe he was mortal, but I also believe he was also God. One manifested pain, the other manifests purpose. And all though the cross brought his physical body much pain, the crucifixion also manifested his purpose and in that purpose he let us know "this" was why he really came. Resurrection was the plan. Death was inevitable because without it, resurrection could not manifest.