Now, I can admit it....
That there are times when I didn't want to be a Universalist. There have been times when I wanted a Hell to take comfort in that someone that I've known of would spend all of eternity in. But what do you do when there's not a single verse out of all 31,173 verses of the Bible that teaches either eternal punishment or annihilation? You repent, forgive, and submit to the righteous judgment of the Son of God that all men; all of Creation shall become His righteousness through the power that He has to conform all things to Himself.
Having a heavier speaking schedule, more opportunities, less persecution from well meaning religious people, perhaps being accepted by a publishing house and their editorial staff as a potential new author of theirs, perhaps an easier road towards the money to do most of the things that are on my heart in the behalf of the Kingdom of Christ, perhaps respect for scholarship in other areas, perhaps recognition, an easier time drawing a crowd for starting a Church, and perhaps a few other things happening through a catering to my flesh by not associating myself with Universalists. I could get into this! Oh yeah, the flesh likes to be catered to and doesn't like the idea of having to have it's own bleeding Cross FIRST to have all of the above.
I'm not saying that there's the least little doubt about the Biblical doctrine of the Universal Restoration. There isn't. I've looked for the permission to give up on people, because after all, Father eventually does anyway according to some preachers. When you've been hurt time and time again, there's something about the idea of endless damnation or some people being blown out like a candle in an instant and not being restored for as long as God exists – again – the flesh lusteth against the spirit and the spirit against the flesh. I've ransacked that Bible afresh when things have gotten a little hard, when the road to my own personal Calvary has been a rough road to travel, and when all of the Kingdoms of this world have flashed before me in an instant. I haven't been able to find the verse that I could compromise on. There isn't an "ambiguity 'out.'"
There isn't any way out after you've been fully persuaded of the goodness of God and His plan in Christ to re-head all things through Jesus Christ. There's no escape. If God's going to ever use me for any mighty things in the earth that impact multitudes, then it's got to be from right where I stand, with no one else but God. After a while, though, after you've seen the looks on people's faces, their tears, and have heard the healing anointing in their voices that indicates that God's healing them of all of the religious and demonic abuse of the past that was heaped upon them through the eternal punishment and annihilation paradigms; when you've seen people healed of all hard thoughts about God and have seen them worship in a consciousness that their Daddy not only can do anything, but has enough moral consistency to reclaim and take responsibility for His entire Creation, then where else is there to go?
To whom shall I go, when these are the Words of Eternal Life? Where else can I go when I can do my absolute best to bring people to embrace the Lordship of Jesus and then at the end of the day be able to go to bed and sleep soundly without any nightmares because I know that ultimately they are in His hands? I've understood all 31,173 verses of the Bible in other ways in the past, and yet none of those other understandings of the Word ever brought me the healing that this has. Nothing else has ever given me the moral fortitude to not only steer clear of sin, but to genuinely loathe sin with a passion. Nothing else has ever cleaned up my life so much to where I'm genuinely debating whether television or radio has a genuine place in my sanctified home, even assuming Christian programming. Nothing else has ever made me love absolutely all people freely, fast and pray for all people fervently, and yet empowered me to be more choosy about my friends so that evil company doesn't corrupt good manners.
Through the application of the Blood of Christ according to a Biblical Universalist understanding of Scripture, I'm actually free through the Son of God from my former sins even to the very thoughts and imaginations of my heart. Nothing else ever derived from the Scriptures has ever emboldened, empowered, and been such a refiner's fire to my life. Nothing else has ever increased the Presence of God to this exponential power in my life before. Nothing else has ever created such overwhelming and incessant worship through me to my heavenly Father and my Lord Jesus Christ. Nothing else has ever made me prouder of my God and eager to testify to His goodness. Nothing else has ever made me love Him like this! Nothing else has ever broken the power of the devil from my life like this!
Nothing else has ever made the Communion Bread and Cup more real and more rich and more fruitful in my life! Nothing else has ever made me rejoice so thoroughly in God's judgments! Nothing else has ever neutralized the ego-factor from my life! Nothing else has ever made me read the Bible more voraciously! Nothing else has ever given me as much confidence to pray for people and to know that I have the petitions that I've requested of Him! Nothing else has ever taken away the survival instinct from me: "if I can just lead one more person to Jesus today, then it's been a good day. Getting pummeled by that rough looking person over there is a chance worth taking. If Jesus bled for them, can I do anything less if called upon to do it? Let me at 'em!!!!! I can take 'em!!!!!!!! After all, for me to live is Christ, and to die is GAIN!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I'VE GOT A SURE THING TO OFFER THEM, AS OPPOSED TO THE CHURCH DOWN THE STREET
Am I perfect? Only in Christ. In myself I am nothing. I don't have anything that I didn't receive, and since it's all a gift, I boast of nothing as though I had not received it. Why don't you receive His free gifts and glad tidings today? Imagine being free to love because your relationship with God is perfectly healed and because at the end of the day, you're not going to lose a single person for whom Christ died. Imagine no more nightmares after sharing the Gospel with people that all of your labors might have been in vain. You can have the assurance, not only of your own eternal life, but of that for all for whom Christ died. You can speak joyfully to people, and not because you have to, of all that Jesus Christ has accomplished for them; of all that He's not going to allow them to get away from BECAUSE He wasn't allowed to get away from a bit of it in their behalf. Imagine being free to love and knowing that not a single person that you ever dare to love will ever spend eternity in a burning devil's hell, or extinguished from conscious existence because of the religious myth that the sins of some are mightier than Christ's atonement or determination to drag them into His flaming embrace. He will wash every single one of their feet. Imagine that day! No more dirty feet of all that have ever walked across your path. You can love them and walk perfectly as your heavenly Father is perfect, knowing the end from the beginning that ultimately Christ is formed in them, regardless of whatever you and I and the Holy Spirit have to do to wrestle them to that point. They're already pinned by the promises. Why do you imagine that they're any less pinned by the Spirit, silly?!